On touring and her music: "Of course because I'm an extremist, I'm like, 'OK, I'll go on tour!' But it's hard to sing songs that are about wounds that are so fresh. It's fun, it's pop music, and I'm not trying to make it sound like anything that it's not, but these songs to me really do represent some heavy sh*t."
On figuring out who she is: "I'm a person who's been through a lot and doesn't know what to say about any of it to myself, let alone the world. I see myself onstage as this perfectly polished, great-at-my-job entertainer, and then in situations like this I'm just this little basket-case puddle of figuring it out."
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On organising the Manchester benefit concert: "It's not my trauma, it's those families'. It's their losses, and so it's hard to just let it all out without thinking about them reading this and reopening the memory for them. I'm proud that we were able to raise a lot of money with the intention of giving people a feeling of love or unity, but at the end of the day, it didn't bring anyone back. Everyone was like, 'Wow, look at this amazing thing', and I was like, 'What the f*ck are you guys talking about? We did the best we could, but on a totally real level we did nothing.'"
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On grieving over Mac Miller's death: "It's pretty all-consuming. By no means was what we had perfect, but, like, f*ck. He was the best person ever, and he didn't deserve the demons he had. I was the glue for such a long time, and I found myself becoming . . . less and less sticky. The pieces just started to float away."
On using her music to cope: "But if I'm completely honest, I don't remember those months of my life because I was (a) so drunk and (b) so sad. I don't really remember how it started or how it finished, or how all of a sudden there were 10 songs on the board. I think that this is the first album and also the first year of my life where I'm realising that I can no longer put off spending time with myself, just as me. I've been boo'd up my entire adult life. I've always had someone to say goodnight to. So Thank U, Next was this moment of self-realisation. It was this scary moment of 'Wow, you have to face all this stuff now. No more distractions. You have to heal all this sh*t.'"
