For the first time, Swift reveals her struggle with an eating disorder. "I tend to get triggered by something, whether it's a picture of me where I feel like my tummy looked too big, or someone said that I looked pregnant, and that will trigger me to just starve a little bit. Just stop eating." During her gruelling 1989 tour schedule, she thought almost fainting after shows was normal. "I don't think you know you're doing it when you do it gradually. You don't ever say 'I have an eating disorder' but you count everything you eat."
After getting down to a size double zero — she says she's currently a size six — she now checks in with herself whenever she's feeling vulnerable, telling herself, "Nope. We don't do that anymore. We do not do that anymore because it's better to think you look fat than to look sick."