A Million Little Things: The Premiere Will Crumble Your Heart Into a Million Little Pieces

In the beginning of the episode, it is revealed that Rome (Romany Malco) has decided to end his life. However, as he tries to take a handful of pills in his kitchen, he keeps getting interrupted by a call from his friend Gary (James Roday). After continuous calls, Rome finally answers the phone with the pills in his mouth. When he learns that his friend Jon (Ron Livingston) has died by suicide, though, he immediately spits out his pills in the sink.

Shortly after Jon's death, Gary shows up at his friend's house to tell his wife, Delilah (Stephanie Szostak), the news. It's incredibly heartbreaking watching her collapse to the ground, but it's just as sad watching Gary try to comfort her.

After Rome shows his wife Regina (Christina Moses) a video he made for Jon's funeral, the two have a heart-to-heart about their friend's tragic death. As she asks why Jon didn't tell Delilah that he was hurting, she unknowingly makes a parallel to her own marriage with Rome. For a moment, it seems like Rome is going to come clean about his depression, but he eventually changes the subject to something else.

During Jon's eulogy, Eddie (David Giuntoli) reflects on his friendship with his friend and how Jon helped him get sober when his son was born. While he's incredibly grateful Jon was there for him in his time of need, he admits that it kills him that he wasn't there in return.

As Gary reflects on Jon's motto that "everything happens for a reason," he asks Eddie what good could have possibly come from his death. In that moment, Rome comes clean to his friends and reveals that if Gary hadn't called him about Jon's death, he would be dead right now. Honestly, watching Rome break down to his friends about his depression and seeing them comfort him might be the saddest part of the entire episode.

One of the last things Jon did before he died was close a huge real estate deal on a bakery, but little did Regina know it was actually a gift for her. Jon bought the space so that Regina could finally fulfil her dream of opening her own restaurant. The sweet moment moved both Regina and me to tears.

At the end of the episode, Rome sits down at his computer desk and watches a video of Jon from when they first met. As Jon talks about hoping for good things in bad moments of life, Rome takes a deep breath and decides to crumble up his suicide note.

If you or a loved one are in need of any help, the National Suicide Prevention organisation has several resources and a 24/7 lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.