Harry & Meghan Docuseries Revelations
39 of the Biggest Revelations From the "Harry & Meghan" Netflix Docuseries
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In a series of heartbreaking interviews, Meghan opens up about how low she really got. So much so that she began thinking, "All of this will stop if I'm not here. And that was the sccariest thing about it, it was such clear thinking."
Meghan's mum, Doria, details how hard it was to hear that her daughter felt this way, and she was helpless to do anything about it. "I remember her telling me that she wanted to take her own life. And that really broke my heart, because I knew that it was bad but to just constantly be picked at by these vultures, just picking away at her spirit, that she would actually think of not wanting to be here," she says. "That's not an easy one for a mum to hear. And I can't protect her, H can't protect her."
Harry admits that he didn't deal with the situation in the way he should have. He was understandably "devastated" that his wife felt this way and knew she was struggling, but he didn't expect it to get this far. "I didn't deal with it particularly well. I dealt with it as institutional Harry, as opposed to husband Harry. And what took over my feelings was my royal role," he says. "I had been trained to worry more about 'what are people going to think if we don't go to this event? We're going to be late.' And looking back on it now, I hate myself for it."
In perhaps the most damning part of this section, Meghan reveals she wasn't allowed to seek help her depression and suicidal thoughts because "they were concerned about how that would look for the institution." As such, her world became very small and controlled, she was not even able to send her friends a photo without being granted permission.