I am the type of person who likes to live my life without regrets. Well, I have them in this situation. I wonder if I had been more forthcoming about my feelings, we would have had the future talk a bit earlier and maybe things would have been more solid. I wonder if I had been more stern about my own timeline instead of trying to keep the pressure off had things been different. You will have regrets. But, like me, you will have to let them go because if you don't, you will just throw yourself into a spin again.