"There was such a tug-a-war in my heart. I felt so ashamed and embarrassed because I didn't want to breastfeed anymore. Guilt can ruin you. When the babies were 3 months old I finally saw my Doctor to seek help for my postpartum anxiety and depression. It was one of the hardest steps, but the best thing I could have done for myself. I needed help. I was exhausted, in a depression, just not my normal self. The very first thing she suggested was to stop breastfeeding. She even wrote me a prescription that said 'stop breastfeeding.' I felt like she gave me permission to stop."